I have not shared this story with many. It is supernatural, incredible, and miraculous. And it is true.
In 2011, I faced the greatest fear of my entire life…and witnessed the miraculous.
In the most terrifying and difficult season of my life, I was blessed with the most intense peace…a peace that absolutely cannot be explained in human terms. A peace beyond my understanding and impossible to explain apart from Jesus!
I “saw” Jesus holding my child. I “saw” angels circled around his hospital bed. I “heard” Jesus say, “I’m going with him.”
My son was about to be taken into surgery, a surgery with unknown results, unforeseen consequences, in the hopes of correcting an unknown problem. We knew his symptoms, we knew he was dying, but no one knew why. We were scared, exhausted, and unsure, but after weeks of consultations, discussions, and countless hours of prayer, everyone agreed the surgery was the best option–no guarantees, just hope.
Right before time to wheel him away from us and into surgery, waiting in his room, praying for Jesus to ease the fear and ache in my heart…Jesus did that and more!
In an instant, a flash really, I “saw” Jesus sitting at the head of the bed holding my son in His arms. In my spirit, I heard Him say, “I’m going with Him”! I couldn’t go with my son, but Jesus reminded me that He is always with him, and would never leave him. He would go with him into surgery while comforting me as well.
As I stood motionless, staring at the hospital bed, filled with the most intense, incredible peace I’ve ever known, suddenly, in another flash, I “saw” protection and strength–an army of Jesus’ angels circling the bed of my son, flaming swords raised up and allowing nothing to penetrate their protection. No darkness, no fear…just light and love.
I did not hallucinate. I did not hear voices. I am not crazy. I can’t explain it in human words or worldly understanding. But Jesus, the King of Kings, Lord of Lords, let me glimpse His love, His mercy, His protection. Through a miraculous moment, He gave me peace.
“And now they’re at it again! Take care of their threats and give your servants fearless confidence in preaching your Message, as you stretch out your hand to us in healings and miracles and wonders done in the name of your holy servant Jesus.” (Acts 4:29-30).
This past Sunday, our pastor taught one of my favorite passages of Scripture, Acts 4. One that many years ago changed my view of “church” and one that changed my life…and continues to do so every time I pray it. I must confess, I don’t pray it often enough, and I don’t believe it enough. It is one of those verses that the more I think I understand it, the more I realize how little I understand. But, through His Word, God will continually increase our understanding as we begin see just how big, powerful, and mighty He is.
No matter what our understanding of God is, He is more. He is bigger, more powerful, move loving, more holy…He is more, and He is enough!
As my pastor preached about the power of God and the incredible signs and wonders still happening around the world today, he revealed the reason we don’t see more here in America. We don’t have because we don’t ask. How many miracles have we missed out on because we didn’t ask for the miraculous?
As I listened, I was overcome with the memory of what God allowed me to “see” years ago, aware of the spiritual war raging around us, and, most importantly, reminded of God’s incredible, amazing, awesome love for us!
The peace that flooded that hospital room was not of this world. I was distraught, exhausted, weary, and an emotional mess before that moment. Yes, we trusted God. We had “surrendered” our son to God, deciding that no matter what, God was good and His will was perfect. But, as a mom, I was still a wreck.
The peace Jesus gave me in that moment was complete, palpable, it filled the entire room, and was completely beyond understanding. It was a gift from the Lord Jesus to bring me, and hopefully you, comfort and strength to keep going, to trust Him, in the painful, hardest moments of life.
So, in the spirit of Acts 4:29-30, I am boldly sharing this story, and I pray you have a glimpse of God’s glory too; I pray for more of the miraculous! I pray you and I both are transformed by His love and grace, and believe Him that in Him, nothing, no-thing, is impossible!
I don’t know if you will believe me. I don’t know if you will think I imagined this. But, as Beth Moore says, “I know that I know that I know” this happened. And I know God wants me to share it. I’ll leave the rest to Him.
But Peter and John answered them, “Whether it’s right in the sight of God for us to listen to you rather than to God, you decide; for we are unable to stop speaking about what we have seen and heard.” (Acts 4:19)
Lord, I thank You for Your love, grace, and mercy. I praise You for Your goodness. Holy Spirit, we want to be part of Your miraculous acts. We want to see healing, signs and wonders today! We surrender our human understanding, worldly limitations we’ve placed on Your power in our lives. Fill us with a supernatural, confident boldness to proclaim Your Word and help us not be surprised when You answer. Help us expect miracles through the name of Jesus! Amen.
I would also love to hear from you! Please leave a comment below or leave a prayer request– and I pray you are abundantly blessed in the fullness of Christ!